Monday, January 17, 2011

The Bus Captain and The Girl (with attitude)

gheeezz..!! I just had the longest weekend in this city!.. had the massive fun but then got my body fatigued in return! and this morning the bed was so very very very mmmphhh.. you know.. it's like mmmmmhhhh...pppffffftttt...ooough yessssss!.. it was sooooooo... oooh God!! you know exactly what I mean don't you?.. well anyway, I managed to get up and did my morning ritual things, and bla bla bla..and got my heels hit the road.. and God provided me my lovely 851 bus just in time! I saw bunch of people were trying to get in to my big sweet lady there..and I got my chance to settle in and stood not far from the entrance steps.but still, there were numbers of people standing behind me. after telling the passengers inside to step further in, the bus captain, who looked much older than my father, stood and shouted to those desperate people around the entrance: "no more please!!no space already..!" (in local accent) instantly I heard a girl standing on the step where the door will be closed shouted back "I don't believe!" (also in local accent)her voice was so gentle yet sounds so cynical..she continued murmuring with his male friend who managed to stood next to the tap machine, and she sounded irritated even more when the bus captain replied "tap your card first, or we're not going!"the girl handed her card to her friend for tapping. when the door was about to be closed, the captain said "be careful,don't let the door hit your beautiful leg"..."no money to go the hospital, okay!" he continued. the door closed and finally we off.until then I still heard her cursing, I think, judging from her tones.. reaching a quite sharp turning the captain warned "watch out, it's dangerous here..hold on!" and after that was the moment when my ears was so itchy like I never clean them for years: the girl replied: "just shut up and drive!" again it was very gentle and again it was so so damn cynical.. I was amazed and tried to look at the captain who amazingly kept his calm.. whoaaa.... then I thought, maybe no need to be so surprised, for I have heard so many times that kindness is a rarity in this city. and maybe this was just one of the thousands of example where seniors were treated so unwell..but then, still, I felt so sorry for the captain, her phrase was easily and calmly spoken..maybe it was okay for the captain, but not for me! try not to judge further more, I desperately hoped that the girl or maybe the other girls or guys will be somehow reminded and then eventually realized that.. how fucking cruel they are! shit!! fuck those ass holes! bitch!!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The Wind

“..wind is the love we don’t understand but feel..” (William Cullen Byant in Dance With Wind)

That night, the wind came and whispered to me that my life was not mine..

the wind blew me away from all the self conveniences I was searching for,
from all the things I like and I don’t..
from all the insincerity…..the wind blew me away

my life was belong to the others, the wind whispered..

And then the wind took me at once..

The wind showed to me how pleasant it was to see the prisoners stepping out from that space of hopelessness where the sound of cracking bones was so loud and clear in the ears…
and how beautiful it was to see them smiling to the morning sun while embracing the warmth..

and I agreely smiled..

The wind was so real and imaginary at the same time. The wind blew me gently and I flew somehow.. The wind surrounded me and then released me.. I confusedly landed and..

yes… however, it was just the wind in any way.